For some reason I have so much anxiety going into this surgery. I think it is because I don't know what is wrong. Maybe fear of the unknown or maybe just fear because deep, deep down I don't think they are going to find anything wrong at all or what if they find something super bad. My biggest fear is that they will find something wrong with my weight loss surgery. I know this is not going to be the case but still I am scared.
Sometimes I wonder if they don't find anything wrong...will I have to live like this the rest of my life? Can I handle living with this the rest of my life? The past few weeks I have been such a mess. I feel myself becoming depressed and not wanting to do anything or go around anyone. I don't even want to hang out with me why would other people? I'm sooooo Debbie Downer right now.
On a side note:
I swear if another person asks me if I regret having weight loss surgery since I never had this pain before and I have it now post-wls...I
Now in my life the good days still far out number the bad. I live life. I love life. This is the first time I can remember feeling alive. :)